The “PILLOWTALK” singer got personal in his autobiography Zayn.
“By the time I decided to leave One Direction, it didn’t even feel like a conscious decision,” he wrote. “I just got to a point I knew I couldn’t go on. I was so tired. I just wanted to go home.”
“Everything I had known before was replaced with something alien, and that can be disorienting,” Zayn went on. “I grew up in a really tight-knit family and on top of everything else, it was difficult for me to suddenly be so far away from them.”
“The biggest obstacle for me after I left and when I first considered releasing my own stuff was that I hadn’t really figured out my sound yet,” he added. “I had some solid musical building blocks and lyrical ideas, but nothing more. I suppose that makes sense – I hadn’t exactly had much life experience when One Direction started.”
The decision seems to be working out fine for Zayn – he’s nominated for New Artist of the Year at the 2016 American Music Awards!
— AMAs (@AMAs) November 5, 2016
Also pictured inside: Zayn arriving at the Peninsula Hotel on Wednesday (November 9) in Beverly Hills, Calif.
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“Logically it made no sense, leaving the biggest boy band in the world at the height of its success,” Zayn explained. “But, after nearly five years of non-stop touring and promotion, I was really struggling to keep going.”.