Ariana Grande Says She'll Carry Manchester Bombing with Her 'For the Rest of My Life'

Ariana Grande just shared an extremely personal letter with her fans.

In episode four of her new docu-series Dangerous Woman Diaries, the 26-year-old entertainer opened up about the 2017 bombing at her concert in Manchester that killed 22 people and injured over 500 more.

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“I’m writing to you this February 22, 2018,” Ariana writes. “It’s been eight months since the attack at our show at the Manchester Arena. It’s impossible to know where to start or to know what to say about this part. May 22, 2017, will leave me speechless and filled with questions for the rest of my life.”

Ariana has opened up about suffering from PTSD after the attack. After the attack, she co-organized and performed the One Love Manchester concert to help benefit the victims and their families with tons of her famous friends.

“Music is an escape,” Ariana continues. “Music is the safest thing I’ve ever known. Music—pop music, stan culture—is something that brings people together, introduces them to some of their best friends, and makes them feel like they can be themselves. It is comfort. It is fun. It is expression. It is happiness. It is the last thing that would ever harm someone. It is safe. When something so opposite and so poisonous takes place in your world that is supposed to be everything but that…It is shocking and heartbreaking in a way that seems impossible to fully recover from.”

Ariana continues: “The spirit of the people of Manchester, the families affected by this horrendous tragedy, and my fans around the world have permanently impacted all of us for the rest of our lives. Their love, strength, and unity showed me, my team, my dancers, band, and entire crew not to be defeated. To continue during the scariest and saddest of times. To not let hate win. But instead, love as loudly as possible, and to appreciate every moment. The people of Manchester were able to change an event that portrayed the worst of humanity into one that portrayed the most beautiful of humanity.

“‘Like a hand print on my heart,’” Ariana writes, quoting musical Wicked. “I think of Manchester constantly and will carry this with me every day for the rest of my life.”

You can watch Ariana‘s new docu-series on YouTube here.