Tana Mongeau Admits Her Marriage to Jake Paul Isn't as Great as it Seems - Watch

Tana Mongeau isn’t holding anything back.

The 21-year-old YouTuber took to YouTube to post a video titled “the truth about everything” where she revealed that her marriage to Jake Paul isn’t as great as it appears to be.

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“I am so unhappy with the way my relationship looks in the public eye, and I’ve done so much pretending I don’t care when I do,” Tana says in the video. “I did so much of being the “cool girl” and not “caring” and I think I just put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself.”

“It was the best feeling in the world to be so on the same page with someone, it was like a drug,” Tana said about when she and Jake first started dating. “Something that was making me the happiest, most motivated, most inspired I’d ever been was also simultaneously helping me succeed and achieve so many dreams I’d had.”

Tana then went on to explain how not sharing her true feelings with Jake has gotten worse since they got married.

“Everyone thought it for clout and fame, and that made it so much worse for me mentally,” she said. “After me and Jake got married, I feel like everything changed.”

Tana and Jake married back in July after a whirlwind relationship. Not long the wedding, Jake was spotted hanging out with his ex-girlfriend Erika Costell again.

“I felt like I was opening my phone every day to something that just broke me further,” Tana said. “Finding out about the Erika s–t on Twitter killed me, because Jake and I had so many conversations where he like villainized her, and I spent so much time trying to be everything she wasn’t.”

Despite all of this, Tana isn’t putting the blame on Jake, but blames herself with not being more honest with her feelings to her husband.

“Jake and I both have these psycho busy lives, and trying to fit each other in just gets harder and harder, and so many things keep hurting me further,” Tana shared. “I don’t ever want to be on bad terms [with him], I don’t ever want to hate each other.”

As of right now, Tana says she and Jake are still together.