Cara Delevingne Wanted to Be the Spice Girls Growing Up

Cara Delevingne resembles a heart on the cover of while on the cover of W Magazine‘s June/July 2016 issue.

The 23-year-old actress and model opened up about the unusual things she did did to audition for Suicide Squad and some interesting memories from childhood. Check it:

On auditioning for Suicide Squad: “I met the director, David Ayer, at a hotel in London on a dark and stormy night. He didn’t tell me anything about the movie. Instead, he showed me pictures of these amazing, enlightened, powerful, but very evil women. He spoke to me about addiction and mental illness, which are things I find very, very interesting. The next time I met David was at his house in L.A. He asked me to read a scene from ‘Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf?’ I love that play and had acted in it at school when I was 17, so I was excited. Somehow, when we were doing the scene, I became livid. I hadn’t felt rage like that in years. And then I got the part! There still wasn’t a script, but David asked me to go and try and find a forest and, if it was a full moon, get naked and walk through the woods with my feet in the mud, which I did. There wasn’t a full moon, but I howled like a wolf. It would have been really funny if someone had seen me.”

On who she wanted to be growing up: “When I was a kid, I always wanted to be other people. I went through different stages: I was a few Spice Girls for a while – first Baby, then Sporty, and then Ginger. I was never Posh, because she wore little black dresses, and I didn’t want to be that kind of girl. Beyond that, I only dreamed of being male superheroes. Spider Man, especially, had a cool costume and cool toys. There were not many strong superhero-type women, apart from Wonder Woman�but I didn’t want to be a 5-year-old running around in, like, a bikini.”

On her childhood obsession with death: “When I was a child, I was obsessed with blood and death. This sounds really dark, but my earliest memory is of cutting myself. I was pretending to shave like my dad. One time, I covered my face in shaving foam, and I got his razor and ran it along the bottom of my finger and nearly cut it off…[The scar] is barely visible now. But I like knowing that it’s there.

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